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welcome to the hole

Once upon a time, I kept a LiveJournal account, gryphons_hole, a deep, dark, comfy little hole in my brain where I kept notes on my life and queerness.
This is the archive to that account, mostly password protected, adult, queer content, stripped of photo content after the site restructured its photo hosting feature. I hope to restore that content as well.
If I know you, ask for the password. If I don’t, hope for a generous mood.
08.18.24 I have realized a need to continue in this space. A kink reawaking if you will, with content that may range into inappropriate for my other blog spaces.
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Protected: moved to boredom

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today
Today is my last day on evening shift for a while.
I agreed to move shifts as requested by my supervisor. I start Monday, 7 am. I have never had a job that regularly required me to start that early. At the height of season, we will be in at 5 am…
I will be working with the bane of the department. LOL That’s my pet name for the daytime coordinator. Here’s a perfect example why:
My machine has three milling stations used for most commercial work, together, they take off the fold of the page signatures and prep the pages for glue. They are: the grinding station, the notcher and the fiber rougher, in sequence. Last night, as I started the machine to set my cover rails, I hear this ugly “Pa-tank-a-tank-tang!!” as something not-paper bounces its way up the vacuum exhaust system of the milling stations.
Not good. I take a look at the milling head and find that two of the fifteen teeth had rather massive chunks taken out of them. I still have no idea what it was. I had no books in the machine at the time. Since the first two jobs in queue were Beyond-ridiculously-tiny-for-this-type-of-machine books, the night coordinator said to give it a shot. The books were so tiny, that I lost six hours trying to run eighteen in total. That is number of books, not number of jobs… Ugh. The third book was tiny in trim size also, but noticeably fatter in thickness. (I do like some girth…) I didn’t think much of it and dropped in a book after setting up the machine.
“Pa-tank-a-tank-tang!!!”
Shit. A third tooth was gone. At this point, myself and the other operator on the off-shifts both agree that running a job that needs the miller is a bad idea. We were just lucky that the metal went up the exhaust system both times. The next one could take out the other two milling stations, or damage the aluminum wheels in the glue pots next in sequence in the machine.
As a rule, the entire set of teeth need to be replaced as a whole, because the height needs to be set-just so and each set needs to be precisely sharpened to like sizes or the whole thing can go whackers. I know this all because last year, my single biggest act of damage to this machine in three years involved taking out almost half of the set in one move… So, the three of us (two operators and the night coordinator) go to the parts shelf and dig through boxes.
We only find one partial set. The day coordinator (the only person that orders parts for the equipment in our department) never ordered a new set. I am sure he had a perfectly good panic moment at the time and decided the parts just weren’t important enough at the time…
*sigh*
This will be my fate as of Monday.
In all, it will likely be a wash. The most important factor in accepting the shift change…? I have been hugely unhappy here for the past year. I feel there is nothing much I have influence over changing. This is a change, good or bad. It is something that I had the power to effect, so I did.
We shall see.
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and so it goes…
Hello, my name is Fred.
Well, it isn’t really, it never really was, but it was one of those things in my circle back in high school.
Ceals, Bud, Ike, Gert and Fred. There was also Ceals’s older brother, but I can’t remember for the life of me what we called him in the Land of Make-Believe Names…
Back in high school, Gert ruled. She always had the best energy, the lightest heart about things. We all had such a great time together, I think in good part to her personality and humor.
My first car, a 1976 lime green SAAB, was renamed the Queen Gertrude in her honor, and mostly because every time it broke down (and it was always breaking down, Gert was riding in it… LOL It seemed that Gert broke down a lot of our cars in those days.
All of these people, except the older brother are on my facebook. Of course, don’t go looking for them by these names… although, somewhere, there are photos of us all in sweatshirts with those names painted on… Yeah, I know… but, hey, it was the eighties; if that was my worst choice made in that decade (and it wasn’t) I would be doing okay.
Anyway, back to Gert… Well, back to the woman that used to be called Gert. She is on my Facebook but we only ever occasionally speak to each other.
My mom just called before I started this post. It would seem that Dad’s nursing home is a Hub of the Universe (except the reunions there aren’t as happy and gay as 18th and Castro). First my Uncle, who died back in January.
Now, Gert’s parents. They were in an auto accident and both were admitted to the nursing home for therapy to recover from their wounds. I am told that Gert’s mother died today. She had a heart attack during therapy and, as she was being attended to, had a second attack…
I am not even sure yet if Gert is aware of this.
And I just don’t know if I know how to use Facebook to say “Oh, hey! Sorry your mother died.”
This stinks.
And Dad goes in for another surgery this Friday. I just can’t say everything balled up in that. His knee is a mess, he has been living mostly in a bed for far too long and he is losing too much muscle… Ugh. If this one doesn’t work, fusing the knee or amputation will be the last remaining options… One if the joint doesn’t work, the other if he gets another infection.
This has been so poorly handled and I am still angry at my father for wasting so much of his life not taking care of himself.
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Protected: fancy dress party

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Protected: the gods within

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Protected: hiding
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Protected: socks-n-garters

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omfgs! holy crap!
So, I’m getting ready for work this past afternoon and the phone buzzes up for the dock door. I punch the button that opens the door remotely. Next thing I know, here I am with <lj-user: peppabear>’s package in my hands…

It is so much bigger than I was expecting! Wow!
What? I can still be impressed… Shusssh!
See…? It’s just so big; so thick… and it feels so good slipped between my thighs…And here I go with that knife again:

OMGs! OMGs! OMGs! OMGs!I love bubble-wrap! I wonder how he knew…?

Peppa packs such a great package…

At this point, I started giggling… The little boxes are just so much fun. I was also dumbfounded; there was just simply so much stuff in the box. Holy wow!

About half of these socks still have their vintage labelling on them… the tiniest of them, I will likely keep that way… LOL @ socks approved by Good Housekeeping… I will work towards revisiting these with better shots of the labels and silk screen printing on the soles…

As for the box, there is so much yet to unwrap. Holy crap!
Please forgive the extreme lighting change here, I had to scurry off to work and the rest was shot without any daylight shining through the window…
I missed an image of the inside box lid; Ms. Ladybug Man… Love her!

This last pair, those of the ones that started this whole thing; that is all I was expecting, but wait! There’s more.

Holy cow! There’s more…

This pair of garters photographed much blacker than they are; they are a deep blue. The – what? – fob? It is satin. Absolutely gorgeous…

Smartly styles; fashion approved! Indeed.

How incredibly cool are these… I think a post including photos of these garters is what started this whole thing.

I rather like the pay-it-forward, find-neat-things-a-great-home network thing that was gotten itself underway in my life… to and fro. This just totally made my day… I think my brain has been *squeee*ing non-stop since this afternoon. LOL
*smooch*
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Protected: masculinity: revisited
