Continuing Silence

I spoke to Todd on the phone this evening. I think I was chastised for not posting lately… Honestly, I have felt too incredibly ordinary lately. I have never been one to feel so ‘status quo’ but I am not shaking it and I just have nothing much to say about it. Funny, spending so […]

the center of the silence

One thing I cannot seem to finger.There is a certain detachment I feel from people. I mean, I am about to leave a four year relationship, and I am okay with that. Of course, I love him. But I don’t think I have ever understood the importance of love. Well, other people’s importance of love. […]

First day on third shift went well enough,though I will need most of this weekto fully adjust to the change… That odd silence in back in my brain,it does not suit me well. If I acted more timely to things,perhaps I could avoid such feelings and surly moods. I seem compelled to find the ‘perfect’ […]

Covering My Hole

A foul, surly mood has been with me all day…the kind that seeps into everything. I can’t grasp anything right now.I am mostly tired, partly over things as they are going.I most definitely need to regroup my life. Time to circle the wagons. I keep dwelling on some sort of silent running period.Not even sure […]

The quiet of my brain upsets me. It always has.I am full of the eerieness that always surfaces when I am about to be vile. I have been resisting the urge to be petty and sour and pissy.It isn’t going away, but I am not either. Can’t put it to words yet without getting whiny […]

Quiet Before the Storm

My brain is that eerie kinda quiet again…something must be brewin’. I am carrying a funk lately.I have not been so successful in the “be and let be” part of my life.That makes me a bit sad. I have been tired and aching and not coming from a happy place…so this wears me down and […]

The Silence of Nothingness

I have wanted to enter a post ever sinceI awoke this morning, well okay around noonish… I had an excellent weekend – a good time with very low cost out,which can easily impact the experience these days. But try as I might, all the events and all the thoughts,nothing comes to the surfaces. Everything is […]