Spent the afternoon on my knees,staring through the hole once more. I clearly understand that this behavior is purely substitution for what I want to be doing. But, for now, it will have to do. Spent the evening thoroughly sad, but oddly content. I watched six hours of the West Wing season 6 marathon on […]

I Will Continue On…

Sleep has never been this consistently elusive for me – ever. Sure, often my brain is buzzing when it hits the pillow, but I simply get back up and do something (draw, clean, beat off) and tire myself. This is different – and it disturbs me. Every single night, I stay up until I tired, […]

I cannot stand it!

So, here’s the thing… I’m standing in the canned goods aislestaring into my oh so sensible coupon folder,rummaging for that scrapthat will save me 25 cents. And I want to cry. I cannot stand it. How can someone so talented,someone so full of love,someone so blessed in life,be so fucking miserable. I cannot stand it. […]