post-camp note

I should make a note to engage in more overwhelming and intense activities at camp next year, so I can return home with huge amounts of processing and not be so instantly reminded of how incredibly lonely I am for such brotherhood in my everyday life…

post-camp processing

My brain doesn’t want to move on, and doesn’t want to release. I feel stuck. I can say that what I linger on is not severe or heavy or unravelling; it simply is, and it is sticky. I would be mostly okay with it hanging around for a bit, even if it isn’t all good. […]

Protected: sent off to camp

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Protected: a close call…

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Protected: so much time passing

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losing my masochist

A friend once mentioned to me that not-choosing was a valid option; he put it in the sense of waiting for clarity. The idea has always sat close to me through my life… With that notion, I have been sitting silently with something since last September. I have mentioned it to various individuals as the […]

did I forget to mention…?

So, right… back at Thanksgiving, the botched engine on the take-off from OAK earned me a 120 buck voucher for my troubles… That said, I am currently at MCI awaiting my flight to Chicago for the weekend. I am visiting a gentleman from summer camp. A handsome, older gentleman. Yes, that handsome, older gentleman… We […]

Protected: camp – separation anxiety and the lesson that I finally learned

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Protected: camp – tl;dr

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I have returned home

… but I do not mean “I’m back at the studio” which I also am. For that, I guess, I could say, “I have returned to the place where I live. I have been processing all day on the return trip. So very much of it all sits so deeply in my mind that it will stay […]