I cannot stand it!

So, here’s the thing… I’m standing in the canned goods aislestaring into my oh so sensible coupon folder,rummaging for that scrapthat will save me 25 cents. And I want to cry. I cannot stand it. How can someone so talented,someone so full of love,someone so blessed in life,be so fucking miserable. I cannot stand it. […]

Another Robert Verdi Dream…Turning into the Apocalypse

Okay, I love Surprise by Design, (along with Ellen’s talk show, it was a major part of my ‘Surviving Chemo’ afternoon) but enough with the Robert Verdi dreams. This one began simple enough…I was assisting judges is some surreal bulletin board competition. The theme was “Activities I’ve Loved in My Life” or some such oddity. […]

I Hate It Most of the Time, But Sometimes I Just Gotta Rhyme…

I sit staringunable to understandthat my head is empty.Staring at the damned blank screen.And it stares back, just as empty and mean. No work schedule to followand disagreeable medshave conspired to set me looseat all hours of the night.With no help in my corner, the insomnia to fight. Roaming untetheredlate into the morningI scurry about […]

Protected: Another Pulled from the Depths of My Hole

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The Refrigerator Incident of ’05

The world’s most selfish/oblivious partner – part 1Okay, so here’s the thing…We are both in the kitchen fixing our own respective dinners. Salad for me. I am in the refrigerator getting produce from the produce drawer, a very sensible place to keep produce, I might add. BAMM BAMM BAMM He’s pounding the storage drawer of […]

the loss of truth

I crave it to the pointthat my skin splitsand my heart craves to throw itselfupon the rocks below. I most recently realizedI hold no animosity in my heart.Not for anyone – not even the idiotsthat annoy ’cause they cannot usethe turn-signal before they come to a stop. But every-time I speakand give forth the truth […]

strangest dream of late

What an odd thing to wake from….Antique shopping, show-tunes and androg-o-dragwith Robert Verdi from Surprise by Design. I watch too many make-over shows.

Protected: “getting to know you, getting to know all about youuuuuuuuuuu”

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Protected: digging stuff out of my hole

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the beautiful singularity of being

On the topic of signs, hidden symbolism, fate, destiny or that everything-happens-for-a-reason crap, last year’s experience with chemotherapy helped bring my perceptions of my own life into infinitely sharp detail… Every event in my life from earth shattering to incidental showed me its impact on who I now am, who I shall be, the road […]