The quiet of my brain upsets me. It always has.I am full of the eerieness that always surfaces when I am about to be vile. I have been resisting the urge to be petty and sour and pissy.It isn’t going away, but I am not either. Can’t put it to words yet without getting whiny […]

The first slump of ’06

I am home.Or at least back to the place I live… I am overwhelmed with sadness now.I feel torn in so many pieces right now.So many places I could be, so many places I could go.But none of them really offer any improvement. Right now, it all feels like the same crap. I miss my […]

The Last Evening, Part 2

I just got in from the evening. Nu-towne Saloon and Friends were the only stops. Got to see the peeps I was hoping would be behind the bars. I also got lucky with the sheer number of people I got to bump into while out tonight. Before dinner – another night at TexAZ Grill (16oz […]

Last day in Phoenix

I am very VERY happy with my new harness. The rolled leather edge makes it very VERY my size. If you are all good little boys, I will pose for some photos when I return to KCMO next week. I am glad to have had this trip. I got to spend a good chunk of […]

Protected: More new toys…

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A Series of Things and 2 New Toys – Plus the Title That Sounds Like Mr White.

Today was a nice, full day. I got to spend some great time with some of my family. You know, the other family, the one I get to pick. I haven’t seen Bill and Terry for almost three years. I spent some good time with them before and after lunchish time. Bill had an appointment […]

A note for the passing

Somewhere in this journal, is the mention of this beautiful, yet bizarre, love I have for a the two major parts of a three way relationship in Phoenix. I have also mentioned John’s death and how I felt him follow me around for the holiday, sharing his decorating madness with me… I have also mentioned […]

OMG!

So, I sitting in front of the tube.CMT or some such country music thing is going. Gretchen Wilson comes up, some slow ditty I have never heard before. “…best if you just walk away,I don’t feel like lovin’ you today…” OMFG! Can this possibly hit MORE dead on what is in my heart at the […]

The Shite and the Fan

I have had a heavy heart all evening. It has been growing for far too long.I have not kept much in my life secret, I don’t do that very well,but this is my first ‘hidden’ post. Assuming I did it right, only a handfulof you are reading this. I have made reference over the past […]

A Great Impromptu Addition

So, last night, I spent the evening at JJ CLubhouse in St Louis,hanging with <wooferstl> and <kiwi59>and then later a couple of other friends that I couldn’t believeI bumped into… Woofer and Matt are great people, I had a great time.I also gave them a box of homemade chocolates, so I think we are BFF… […]