Once more…with clarity!

The early morning post completely missed the point…This is it. I am not a top. I am not a bottom.My recent life experiences are specifically lead me to an integrated space. Versatile is a co-opted sucky term for the situation. More over.I am not (just) a Daddy, Dom, Master, and don’t get me started on […]

The lost point of a lost man…

I am finding subjects running through my head all day long at work, to vanish in my tiredness as soon as I arrive home. But this topic has been building for a noticeable amount of time, and I will follow the momentum set by <forgelives> and <poztatt>… I am lost on the terms of today’s […]

The Eleventh Sign

The 11th figure of the Gearhead Zodiac is almost fully inked. He is The Transfigured Vessel.I just finally set the name yesterday. All the others were well set ages back, before even most the sketching was completed. The previous title for the 11th sign was The Human Urinal, which although I like the nastiness a […]

Poetry from the Hole

Some conversations lately (namely with <poztatt> and <forgelives> have gotten me thinking of some stuff I read some long time back. This one in particular is eight years old. Just re-read it. I could have written it last night, after reading some posts on my list… I suppose some would say I am no longer […]

I am such a freak!

So I head out to get a $3 bottle of ink from Utrecht and 60 some bucks later, come home with a new set of Rapid-o-graphs. On sale! DUH! Its called a 9-pack, but really only five pens are complete. Four are only the nibs and ink cavity without the body of the pen, but […]

The Second Take

Okay. Try again.I have been spinning this through my headall night at work. I didn’t quite get it right the other day.I never really got to the purpose of the post. This is the official invitation to interact.I have an open – or mostly open – posting policyin part to encourage exchanges, even if they […]

Gone Again

And he is gone again. Another chance gone with him. Off he goes to spend money he doesn’t want to realize he doesn’t have. I sit here, ready for work, knowing I will not see him again until sometime Saturday. I sit here. And sit here. Waiting for a perfect time that will NEVER show […]

I am so angry with myself.I am furious. WTF? Seriously, WTF?

I can barely breathe…My heart is racing… And I don’t know how to make it happen. I have spent so much of the last two years just reacting, maybe even my entire life. I no longer feel I know how to make something happen. How to will it to be. I don’t know how to […]

A Passing Frustration

First, the disclaimer…I understand and accept in my heart that each individual comes to an event for a unique purpose – meaning – each and every person has a specific, unique motivation for doing what he does, even if it is the same activity in which I partake. I do not – for the most […]