The Official Change

I spoke to Todd a bit earlier. He said he checked my site today. It is down. Nothing left but an error message. Oddly, the only thing that bugs me is the realization that I have lost my hosting source for LJ images… so any previous post with photos will now have those damn-ass red […]

Out of Commission

The Wescos are out of the boot circuit for a bit. I have finally given them the oiling they have needed for some time now. The leather has been too dry for too long and I am concerned about cracks damaging the boots. I have stripped off all the polish and cleaned the leather. Now, […]

Craving Isolation

I just couldn’t get out of work fast enough today. At the moment, I seem overly aware of how little I make for how much crap I have to endure… From the moment I arrived last night, every event added to the lingering frustrations of the weekend. Each moment repeated my opinion that I do […]

Continuing Silence

I spoke to Todd on the phone this evening. I think I was chastised for not posting lately… Honestly, I have felt too incredibly ordinary lately. I have never been one to feel so ‘status quo’ but I am not shaking it and I just have nothing much to say about it. Funny, spending so […]

The Slow Start

That is were I am moving. His ex studio partner has gone to Chicago and he needs help affording the space. The nice thing…he doesn’t stay there, so I will be the only resident in the space, unless I want to take a roommate to make it more affordable. Since the other spaces in the […]

Moving On

Well, it is done. I was not brave or brilliant or even really courteous. I simple got sloppy enough that it eventually got back to David that I wanted out. I am a coward. Or too wounded to impact the change first-hand. Or both. But we will both mend. We will both eventually move on […]

They Left Them in the Fuckin’ Door…Again…

For the record, the new regimen is as follows (four pills, five drugs – yeah, five): Combivir – two of the three parts of my old regimen. I have technically grown immune to one part of it, but my doctor says that it still tends to help other meds work better, so some gain may […]

Why the *#%$@! Am I Still Awake?

Let me tell you… Healthcare. I have spent the entire afternoon – when I SHOULD be sleeping – trying to arrange shipment for the new drug regimen that SHOULD have been here over a week ago. The poor medical assistant at my doctor’s office kept calling in the prescriptions that SHOULD have been in Caremark’s […]

The Here and Now of KCMO

This weekend, I discovered that two more dear acquaintances are planning on leaving KCMO to various other parts of the country. Leaving me teetering on the brink of a growing sadness, the news clicked something in my head. Something I have suspected about the KC community for some time… It would seem that KCMO is […]

the center of the silence

One thing I cannot seem to finger.There is a certain detachment I feel from people. I mean, I am about to leave a four year relationship, and I am okay with that. Of course, I love him. But I don’t think I have ever understood the importance of love. Well, other people’s importance of love. […]