I have reconnected with Jeffers. Gods, I miss him. He updated me some on Bob’s condition. The stress and sadness is still here, but not the fight or flight instinct. I can breath and plan a slow reaction, somewhat. Instead of trying to interpret and perhaps misconstrue the facts, here is a chunk of his email…
No need to rush after would be fine. The colon cancer has spread to the
lung it is inoperable and radiation is out at this time. He is doing weekly
chemo and holding up but it is hitting him hard. Bob has not said anything
but my guess is 1 year to 1 1/2. I am ok considering the circumstances.
I also got Jeffers’ yahoo ID and spent most of last night chatting and catching up. I have always had difficulty keeping close contact with folks that are not in town, in part due to the fact that they are still so active and vibrant in my memory, it sometimes is hard for me to realize they are not still right beside me.
Initially, it was a novel thing. I do like the feeling that all my old friendships are right by my side, but now it has become an annoyance. Friends are now falling into ill-health and dying and I don’t even know. Breaking the habit is more of a bitch than first anticipated. I suppose it would be like changing any other habit that has run the length of a lifetime.
I am thankful that I can at least plan a more sensible trip later on to visit Bob. I am also glad that Jeffers is back directly in my life, even if only via instant messaging.
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